Rough Day

Today I attended a very sad funeral. I really don't want to disclose who it was for on the web, as it is not my news to tell, but I wanted to write down how I feel about it before the moment passes.

The person who recently passed was not someone I knew very well. I knew his wife and I have gotten to know his sweet little child. Though the time I spent with him was very very short, I got to see a glimpse of the person he was. He was an amazing father and an avid sports fan, and he will certainly be very very missed. I did ok during the funeral, and then at the burial until it came time for his daughter to say goodbye. The little kid wave just about shredded my heart. She's old enough to know he's gone, but not old enough to know what kind of impact that will have on her life.

I have attended only two true funerals in my life prior to the one today. The first was during high school for a friend of mine who was killed in a car accident. The church was so full with family and friends that I, among a lot of my high school class, had to sit in the hallway crying on my boyfriend's (at the time) shoulder. The wails from his mom were almost too much to handle. The second was for my grandpa - my mom's dad. He had a beautiful catholic mass followed by a reception where I got to meet some extended family and some of our family friends whom I had never met and he was in his 70s and had lived a good life. I still think he passed too early, but he had had the chance to see his children grow up, marry, and have children of their own. With my mother being so sick I often get worried that she won't be around to see the kids I plan on having and I really hate having these thoughts. Though I certainly had those thoughts today.

I'm so grateful that I was able to attend the funeral today to show my support for the family during this very difficult time. This man died far too early and based on the amount of people who came to show their respects, he was certainly loved by many. May he rest in peace.