Unfair

Sometimes life can truly be unfair.

My mom went to the doctor for her scheduled PET scan this Monday, November 8th, her first one in months. I imagine it was supposed to tell the doctors how she was doing and what treatment, if any, was needed. I texted her after getting home from work to see how everything went (the test tends to give her a bad headache and she's tired from having to drive back from SF) and she said that the test itself went fine and her headache wasn't nearly as bad as it has been. She didn't have any news at that point, so we chatted for a minute and then I left her alone so she could rest.

Matt's mom had called while we were at work and left us a message asking us to call her and let her know how my mom's test went. She's awesome like that. She's always worried that she doesn't talk to my parents often enough - she wants us to pass along the "we're thinking of you" sentiment which seems to be fine with both parties. Anyway, we called her and basically told her we had no more information.

Ugh.

Then my mom texts me: "Just got a call from dr. Martin. It's not good. The cancer is back :("

Ugggggghhhhhhh.

I called her right away to see if she knew anything else. She didn't. She'd get a biopsy done on one of the swollen lymph nodes in her leg and then she'd meet with her doctor to see what her options were.

Before she started all these treatments back in March, I remember the doctor saying something about how she can't go through this treatment two times in the same year - it just puts too much strain on her organs. So mom was originally worried that she wouldn't have any options and she'd just have to wait until the cancer took her away from us (holy hell, that was hard to type). Thankfully it looks like she'll have a few options, though we won't know what they are until later this week.

Sorry for the downer post. This blog serves as my journal sometimes when I don't really have time to hand write it in my book. If you have room for my mom in your thoughts and/or prayers I would really appreciate it. She's going to need everything she can get.

I love you, mom.